Weekends with The Confused Raptor

I go by the pseudonym Shani Milan.
And I still don't know how to wink, whistle, do the fish thing, twist my tongue, && snap with both hands. No pressure, after all I'm just one confused raptor.

I understood all that in my head, but I still didn‟t believe it in my heart.
— If I Stay, Gayle Forman (via bookswelovetoquote)
But the you who you are tonight is the same you I was in love with yesterday, the same you I’ll be in love with tomorrow.
— If I Stay, Gayle Forman (via bookswelovetoquote)
A dreamer is one who can only find his way by moonlight, and his punishment is that he sees the dawn before the rest of the world.
I constantly wonder how my life looks in other people’s eyes. Do they think I have it easy? Do they think I have nothing going on for myself? Or are they fascinated with who I am? The thing is that no one will ever know my whole story. No one will ever know the things I’ve had to overcome. Not even my closest friends, not even my own family. The thing is that people are so quick to judge now a days. You only see a person from what they want and allow you to see. I always try to look as put together as if can and I guess that’s my way of hiding from the truth. It’s just that way, everyone will assume that everything in my life is okay, that I never go through anything. If only everyone knew how broken I am, and how I’m holding on for dear life on this one last strand that’s recently become very delicate. The truth is that no one really knows me. No one will ever know me and sometimes that scares me, because no one will ever know why I am the way I am.
I don’t really care. I shouldn’t have to care. I shouldn’t have to work this hard. I realize now that dying is easy. Living is hard.
— If I Stay, Gayle Forman (via bookswelovetoquote)
libertariantimes:

Government threatened Foley family before son’s execution
After a series of recent interviews, members of the Foley family have said the government threatened to prosecute their family if they had raised and paid the money for the ransom sought for the life of their son, James Foley.
According to ABC News, Diane Foley, the mother of James, said they were threatened with lawsuits multiple times if they had gone through with paying the ransom. “We were told that several times and we took it as a threat and it was appalling.”
Diane then said a highly decorated military officer, who serves on the National Security Council, came to their house to warn them about the pending prosecutions.
“Three times he intimidated us with that message,” said Diane. “We were horrified he would say that. He just told us we would be prosecuted. We knew we had to save our son, we had to try.”
Ben Swann
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libertariantimes:

Government threatened Foley family before son’s execution

After a series of recent interviews, members of the Foley family have said the government threatened to prosecute their family if they had raised and paid the money for the ransom sought for the life of their son, James Foley.

According to ABC News, Diane Foley, the mother of James, said they were threatened with lawsuits multiple times if they had gone through with paying the ransom. “We were told that several times and we took it as a threat and it was appalling.”

Diane then said a highly decorated military officer, who serves on the National Security Council, came to their house to warn them about the pending prosecutions.

“Three times he intimidated us with that message,” said Diane. “We were horrified he would say that. He just told us we would be prosecuted. We knew we had to save our son, we had to try.”

Ben Swann

I love this one: “it’s better to be extraordinary at simple things than mediocre at something extraordinary.”
Unknown (via psych-facts)

I know that life is not fair. That in this world, we are not all equal. Some people are loved more than you. Some people are luckier than you. Some people get more than you. I’ve learned to live with that fact. I think I’ve fared well so far. But there are just days. Days when these realities come crushing down on you all in one time, weighing you down to a crumpled mess of tears and self pity. And I let myself feel it. I let myself absorb it through every vein. I let myself cry it out until I go back to that predisposition that I can’t do anything about it. I just have to push those realities back into the attic of my mind hoping that they stay there forever. Maybe for a time, I’ll feel alright again. 

But I’d understand if you chose love, Adam love, over music love. Either way you win. And either way you lose. What can I tell you? Love’s a bitch.
— If I Stay, Gayle Forman (via bookswelovetoquote)

(via naomotions)

neil-gaiman:

youaintpunk:

sarajevomoja:

talk about perspective. shit.

Fucking hell.

I remember the first time I saw a map of Africa to scale. My jaw dropped. View high resolution

neil-gaiman:

youaintpunk:

sarajevomoja:

talk about perspective. shit.

Fucking hell.

I remember the first time I saw a map of Africa to scale. My jaw dropped.

So, please, oh please, we beg, we pray, go throw your TV set away, and in its place you can install, a lovely bookcase on the wall.
Losing me will hurt; it will be the kind of pain that won’t feel real at first, and when it does, it will take her breath away.
— If I Stay, Gayle Forman (via bookswelovetoquote)
And that’s just it, isn’t it? That’s how we manage to survive the loss. Because love, it never dies, it never goes away, it never fades, so long as you hang on to it.
— If I Stay, Gayle Forman (via bookswelovetoquote)

(via nakakabighoneyy)

If you stay, I’ll do whatever you want. I’ll quit the band, go with you to New York. But if you need me to go away, I’ll do that, too. I was talking to Liz and she said maybe coming back to your old life would be too painful, that maybe it’d be easier for you to erase us. And that would suck, but I’d do it. I can lose you like that if I don’t lose you today. I’ll let you go. If you stay.
— If I Stay, Gayle Forman (via bookswelovetoquote)
Sometimes you make choices in life and sometimes choices make you.
— If I Stay, Gayle Forman (via bookswelovetoquote)
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